「我氣到不行!!!」我的一位學生對我說 "I Am So ANGRY!!!" A Student Of Mine Said To Me

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上面的書法字，仍習寫練習之中，所以粗糙，所以簡單；

其中，有使用真正書法用紙的書寫，也有使用圖畫紙的書寫，

承專家教師的教導，了解紙中奧妙，以及筆下的可能，

和真正使用上墨條、墨盤等文房四寶；

於是，墨色和筆觸，俱有不同。

感謝這樣的專家教師的指導之餘，也由於這樣的感恩，而讚嘆生命的奇妙!!!

畢竟，我從未思考過自己會使用書法來表述思想脈絡。

Calligraphy shown above would be my experiment under an expert's instruction, which I am fascinated by and thankful for. I have discovered the paper used can affect the luster of the ink from the proper tools that also need to be mastered. I am in awe of all these and again, 

very gratefully inspired by the entire process: after all, I  had never considered about 

applying calligraphy to express what lies in my thoughts.

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學生跟我說：「這完全不能饒恕，我非常生氣! 我真的太生氣了!!!」

因為這番話從一個低年級的學生口中說出

因為事件的緣由和「競爭」有關

於是在事發多日之後

這些文字映入我的心窗

A lower Grade Student whom I have been teaching said to me that 

"I cannot forgive that person. It makes me extremely upset!" 

As the incident moved away with time, one day, those words shown, written by me in calligraphy forms, went into my mind, and I therefore created them on different pieces of paper as trials. Basically inside those Chinese characters I talk about the virtues of FORGIVING the others leading to making ourselves more at peace within, which, sorrowfully, can be something many would never attain due to their resentments or strong, even violent emotions towards certain things and/or people.

How come people can be so angry? Often, I ask myself and I still cannot find the reasons. 

At one occasion, some colleagues of mine asked "Hope, why can you be so agreeable with your students all the time? Don't you know it's unhealthy to be not angry?" 

為何有那麼多人因為某些事情而爆跳如雷? 

同僚們詢問「為何妳不生氣? 妳不知道不發怒有礙身心健康嗎?」

At those certain moments in my life, perhaps I used to be upset by things and issues around me. Long gone are the past stories, thanks to all those voluntary, humanitarian gestures I have decided to take. They not only train me to be more patient but also allow me such space to grow; as a result, I guess to be agitated in my life has not become easy anymore. Contrary to that, I feel it would be a lot nicer when we are all very calm. Is it even possible? Well, if we are understanding, perhaps it is not a fairy tale to see people put benevolence in front of every thing and anything else!

這是一個不容易回答的問題，我想，應該是經年累月的深度國內外服務工作，改動我原本的思路及行為模式，由於認知這樣的服務工作的深度及廣度，使我感到更為寧靜和平和，這不代表我完全不會動怒，只是過度牽動心弦的事件和人物，毋須存在，

因為內心中所映照的明鏡平靜無波，亦無欲無求。

如果許許多多人都能夠平靜面對週遭及這個世界，那該有多好呢? 

只是，身邊充滿忿忿不平的人們，似乎已經變成生活中的理所當然?