持續不斷的試鍊 Non-stopped Experiments
Before things were planned, I never expected that each Friday, my schedule would be this way--during the day time, I have a day filled with classes, including those ones who are lagging behind and whom no other person in my school would like to teach. After such, I would have to rush to another place, a comparatively more suburban area of Taiwan where a bounch of other students who used to have no ambitions, no intentions to mingle with the others by using English wait for me to have class hours with them for the night.
在進行計畫的同時，我沒有設想過自己將歷經最「恐怖」的緊縮行程：
週五必須在一所公立學校從早到晚滿堂，下午所接的還是別人不肯、不願接的程度落後、問題多多的小學生班級。下課後，必須趨車前往一個相對偏遠的地帶，在那裡的服務行腳，有著起初對自己的生命不懷抱任何理想、沒有鬥志、不覺得使用英語與人溝通是重要的一回事的青年們，原先的目標是作為搬運工、砂石車司機……，等候著我，為他們進行夜間的課程。
Last Friday I was extremely exhausted. When I taught those pupils in the afternoon, I could feel my frustrations surging up. I went outside to take deep breaths, returning to the classroom to still face the students with all the energy and love I had left that day. In my mind, I felt I must have failed them for the afternoon.
上週五，我經歷著非常疲倦的一天，下午的學生由於學習力低落、行為表現異於一般學生，使我感到心力交瘁，我感受到自己在情緒上的低落後，走出教室，深呼吸幾口，繼續回到教室，微笑面對學生，鼓勵他們。
但在內心深處，我總感到那天的我，不是一個太襯職的教師。
Then, the magic moment arrived. Two of the most naughty, the most troublesome voluntarily gave me their respective cards, telling me that they wished to give the card to me, for in their mind, I am a very special teacher.
接著，魔幻時刻就這樣翩然降臨了……
兩位最為有行為舉止狀況、學習力低落的學生，不約而同分別製作了各自的卡片要送給我，他們一前一後在不同的時間將卡片交給我，告訴我說：
「老師，謝謝妳，我好喜歡上妳的課!!!」
On the bus to that other region of Taiwan, my hometown, I was reflecting what I had done to make them so well received. In the evening, the more mature students who are about to be in the college told me that they all took the advice I had given them, contrary to my own understanding that they might not be able to welcome my suggestions so I'd need to find others to help out in terms of guiding them through the dark channels.
坐在前往另一個城市的巴士之中的我，百思不得其解，自己到底哪裡做得對了，能夠受到他們這樣的禮遇。
爾後，與那些原先處於民治未開階段的中學生互動時，他們對我說：
「老師，妳那時好言相勸的當下，我們就決定採取妳的建議了。」
這個，也讓我極為震驚，因為我一直覺得自己的說服力道不夠，不足以撼動他們，而已經搬了協力於我的邏輯去點撥他們的救兵師長前輩們。
I never knew I could play magic; somehow, I feel that magical power in me transforming each and every person I have met, to be better, stronger, more willing, and loving.
我從不知自己有變戲法的能力，但我可以感受到自己有種莫名奇妙的力道，把碰觸到我的生命轉化為更加優質、有行動力、有前瞻性、有想法、有愛心的生命力。
That was why during the weekend, I digged into my old "possessions" while finding this one shown in the video. I am glad I've walked steadily in the field of education. It's just that I've utilized different mediums to make myself a better, more ideal educator. To be quite honest, I am thankful for all those whom I have met along the journey that uplifts me to be at a better position to do good things for all.
這也就是為什麼在週日的休息時光中，我將過去的作品找出來，選定了其中一幅來檢視我自己的初心。
我應該要提的，是自己很樂於行走在陽光中、行走在康莊大道之上，於是鳥語花香，喜悅處處。
而我更開心與榮耀的，是在這一路行來的過程裡面，所有我所遇過的人們、事件，不論在當下是好是壞，所給予我的種種課題、省思、反饋，而使我有這樣的魄力，敢於去持續挑戰與實驗自己的能力與極限。
What a privilege!
這當真是至高無尚的榮耀!
What a magnificant life filled with much grace!
而我這奇妙的生命就如此在上天的眷顧之下，優雅行來……
And I am convinced that things are this way merely as a result of my strong desire to make things, societies, and the world a bit better due to my existence :)
當然，我自始至終篤信的，是若非這種希望將人、事、物帶往更佳的境界的心地，若非這種使世界更加美好的認真努力，也許，我的生命力將顯得薄弱一些、無感一些、也無力一些……
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